As I sit here and think
About all that you've done
About how you gave me your one and only son
And I'm trying to fathom
All that you are, but so far Lord, you're so beyond me
I fall down in reverence
And I fall down in fear
I'm asking you Lord
won't you please draw near
I think the first few words of this song really capture the feelings in me right now. For some today may be just another day, just another friday. Maybe even just another good Friday, but i think that its important that this day not be overlooked or underappreciated. So many times as Christians, we know what this day represents and what it means, but we don't take the time to let what Christ did on the cross truly sink in. We don't take into account the reality of the pain and suffering He endured, and we go through our days without feeling anything. Maybe it's just because i'm such an emotional person that this is so real for me but, sometimes when I'm singing songs in church, and really thinking about the words and the meaning they have for me, I have to stop myself because i'm holding back tears. And when I watch movies like the passion of the Christ i'm so deeply convicted and filled with remorse that I did that to him. That when those soldiers are mocking Him, whipping Him, ripping out his flesh until its possible to see his bones, those soldiers are me. I put that crown of thorns upon His head, and I nailed Him to that cross. And yet, amidst of it, when he was up on that cross, struggling for every breath that he took, I was on his mind. I can't even fathom the love that would take. And that he willingly endured that pain because he loves me more than i'll ever know.
