Lent.

So my brother just came into my room and was like. I'm not going on facebook until after Easter. Do it with me. And i guess you kind of have to understand both of us to understand what's going through my head. So my brother is like the perfect child. He's super smart, good looking, an amazing christian. Basically impossible to compare to. And then theres me. Not that i'm a horrible person or anything, but i'm definitely not my brother. And i like to go on facebook. I like to talk to my friends, it's basically what i do when i'm bored. And i mean, he goes on facebook its for a bit and then he's off doing other things. So when he told me to do this with him. My thoughts were, either i do this with him and its extremely hard for me but i show him that i can do it. Or i give him the answer he's looking for and say no because its the easy way out. So i said yes. And it's really gonna suck but i'm doing it for Jesus. Not only will this make me spend less time on my computer, it will allow me to have more time for Spending time with Jesus. Which i haven't done alot of lately. And, although this may sound like a stupid thing to write about or be worried about, or it may seem like this is easy to do, it just reminds me off all the other parts of my life i should be working on.

i feel like i've been at a point of procrastination in my life and its time to get things sorted out. Its like i know what i need to do, but im so unmotivated and comfortable where i am right now that i can just do it later. But i realize that thats not okay. God wants all of me. Not half of me, not when i want to give him me, but all of me always. And i guess thats the hardest part about being a christian for me. Its not the temptation to drink or do drugs or be someone i'm not. Its giving God my all. I'm good at giving him some of me when i want to. But as far as living out every moment to honor God, i suck at it. So, i guess this is to a new beginning.