An Unfathomable God.

O Lord, you have examined my heart

and you know everything about me.

You know when i sit down or stand up.

You know my every thought from far away.

You chart the path ahead of me

and tell me where to stop and rest.

Every moment you know where i am.

You know what i am going to say even before i say it, Lord.

You both procede and follow me.

You place your hand of blessing on my head.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too great for me to know!

I can never escape from your spirit!

I can never get away from your presence!

If i go up to the heaven, you are there;

If i go down to the place of the dead, you are there.

If i ride the wings or the morning,

If i dwell by the farthest oceans,

even there your hand will guide me,

and your strength will support me.

I could ask the darkness to hid me

and the light around me to become night

but even in darkness i cannot hid from you.

To you the nigh shines as bright as day.

Darkness and light are both alike to you.

You made all the delicate inner parts of my body

and knit me together in my mothers womb.

Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!

Your workmanship is marvelous and how well i know it.

You watched me as i was being formed in utter seclusion,

as i was woven together in the dark of the womb.

You saw me before i was born.

Everyday of my life was recorded in your book.

Every moment laid out before a single day had passed.

How precious are your thoughts about me, O God!

They are innumerable!

I can't even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand!

And when i wake up in the morning, you are still with me!

O God, if only you would destroy the wicked!

Get out of my life you murderers!

They blaspheme you;

your enemies take your name in vain.

O Lord, shouldn't i hate those who hate you?

Shouldn't I despise those who resist you?

Yes, I hate them with complete hatred.

for your enemies are my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;

test me and know my thoughts.

Point out anything in me that offends you,

and lead me alont the path of everlasting life.

PSALM 139

I'm really just in awe of the God that i worship.
The more I think about Him. The more i can't beleive how unreal he is.
He's uncomprehendable, but i think thats what draws me to him most.
He's such a mystery that no matter how long spent trying to discover, will never be revealed. He's all knowing. How is that even possible? He knows what i'm going to say even before i say it. How unreal is that. He planned out everyday EVERYDAY of my life before i was even CREATED. When you stop to think about that, i mean really truly let it sink in, its completely mind blowing. I mean, even when i start to think about the human body, i'm shocked that any person could ever beleive that it wasn't designed by a creator. There's no way that something THAT complex could happen "by chance." and i guess thats what bothers me about the world. Have you ever studied the body. Because i'm currently in biology twelve which is all about the human body and its actually incredible how it all works. Even a tiny cell has an intricate make-up that no human mind could ever have designed. And yet, even though people talk about how uniquely perfect the human body is, they don't stop to think about who created it. They don't even believe that it was created, just that we evolved from apes. Cuz that makes so much more sense. And i mean, they don't even have a reason behind their disbeleif. There reasons are "just because." Sometimes i don't even think people have reason to not beleive in God. They just don't want to believe in him because they know that it involves giving up their whole life to serve and glorify him, and that scares them. It would be different if they told me they didn't believe in God and then had a whole bunch of reasons to back it up. Even though i may still disagree with them, at least they took the time to think about it, and look into it and come up with a decent argument instead of just saying "God's not real." And it goes both ways, People shouldn't say they're a christian unless they know what they're talking about. And beleive me, i was one of those people who thought i knew who God was, but when it really came down to it, i knew nothing at all... and i've searched him out, and continue to search Him out everyday so that when someone asks me a question, i don't say "because the Bible says so."

Not only is God all knowing, but God has power that is unattainable by an earthly being. Just yesterday i was watching the prince of egypt and it reminded me of the incredible power that God has. Even in cartoon form i was awestruck by the amazing power that God possesses. He gave moses a staff and told him to place it in the water, and as he places it in the water the sea splits in two, water rising up on either side of the staff just spraying straight up, and the land beneath it is dry. Is that not incredible? Not only that but he hardened pharaoh's heart, over and over again so that His power could be shown, and so that He would be Glorified. He could've just made it so that Pharaoh let the Hebrews go the first time Moses asked, but no, he made sure that Pharaoh knew what kind of God this was, that nothing and no one could stop Him.

And even though He's so incredibly powerful and all knowing, and we could never be worthy to be in his presence, or even be worthy enough to worship someone as Holy as Him, he has unending grace and loves us unconditionally. How does that even work. A God. All knowing, all powerful, holy, righteous, PERFECT.. loves sinful, selfish, completely undeserving us. And yet time and time again we turn our backs on Him. We disrespect Him. And we give ourselves the Glory. I can't see how he does it. But i guess thats just how much he loves us. So when i think about all he's done for me. It should be obvious that I would give up my life for Him and live in obedience to Him. And yet, even though he willingly sent His son to die for MY sins, its such a struggle for me to live day to day for him. And thats why He's God, and i'm human.

I could honestly go on forever about how incredible this God is that i serve. I have been so blessed to be able to worship such an unfathomable God. And as hard as it may be, as unmotivating, as much of a struggle it may be to live fully for Him everyday for the rest of my life. I have devoted my life to this God. And i know that no one, and nothing will ever take me away from Him.